fuck

Since I have been gone:

*b/p nearly every day again.

*discovered my neighbour, a girl who went to my school, who is a year younger then me is bulimic, she look's amazing but. Bitch haha. I wish we were friends.

*Gained i'm pretty fucking sure.

*been so fucking busy with shows and uni cbnhwiofbhilabfhilb

*debating what the fuck to do with my life next year. Since I graduate this year and all.

*getting tested for glandular (i think some of you may call it mono)- my immune system has gone to shit. Praying it's not glandular I don't have time to be bedridden!!!!!!

fuck fuck fuck fuck- my swearing is on high today haaaaaaa

miss you babes,

cannot wait till my life starts again so i can post more frequently.

The honeymoon never lasts long...

So today has been a huge fuck up! I knew it was only so long until id turn into a bingeing monster!!

It all started when it was raining and cold this morning- don't knock it- I starve/work out the best when the sun is shining!

I ate my strawberries for breakfast and then went mental. 5 pieces of bread, a turkish roll, biscuits, ice creams, block of chocolate etc etc.

Skipped class and stayed at home so I could vomit.

Did it all again this afternoon!

Gah.

Look I'm disappointed. But it would have been unrealistic of me to expect a smooth run. I figure one day isn't too bad considering I used to be b/p every day, multiple times. I will probably gain, but I'm hoping to lose it by water fasting tomorrow.

Although I feel like a mammoth right now, there is always tomorrow I suppose.

BooHoo.