fuck

Since I have been gone:

*b/p nearly every day again.

*discovered my neighbour, a girl who went to my school, who is a year younger then me is bulimic, she look's amazing but. Bitch haha. I wish we were friends.

*Gained i'm pretty fucking sure.

*been so fucking busy with shows and uni cbnhwiofbhilabfhilb

*debating what the fuck to do with my life next year. Since I graduate this year and all.

*getting tested for glandular (i think some of you may call it mono)- my immune system has gone to shit. Praying it's not glandular I don't have time to be bedridden!!!!!!

fuck fuck fuck fuck- my swearing is on high today haaaaaaa

miss you babes,

cannot wait till my life starts again so i can post more frequently.

Update on skinny reasons!

I fasted today cos I was feeling sick again so that worked well cos I have no appetite at all. I think I'll have to go to the doctors, pretty sure I have got a virus.

Today I was so lazy.

I:

woke up at 10.30 am.

Watched Coco Avant Chanel.

Had a four hour nap.

Made a Tumblr.

So thanks to all your input I have put together 20 reasons for us to keep on track to reach our goals! Feel free to steal, add your own, change whatever. I'm going to print it out and stick it on my wall. :)

1. I can throw on anything and not feel self-conscious.

2. I will feel healthier.

3. I will have more confidence and be more outgoing.

4. I will have control over something in my life.

5. I will have more money- money previously spent on binges can go on other things.

6. I will not be the fat cousin/sister/friend/girlfriend.

7. I will feel more attractive.

8. I will receive more compliments.

9. I won't be called curvaceous.

10. I will be happier.

11. I will set a good example to those overweight.

12. I will be the envy of everyone.

13. Guys and girl will check me out.

14. I will feel sexy and be more confident and wild during sex.

15. I will look and feel amazing in a bikini.

16. Guys can easily lift me up.

17. I will not have to worry about sizes.

18. It will take less time to shower/rub lotion in/shave etc if my body is smaller.

19. I will accomplish something that almost everyone else fails at.

20. If I can do this, then I can do anything.

Hope you are all well! Taking my beloved lap top to bed to watch Gossip Girl :)

I'm sick.Not just in the head.

I woke up this morning with the worst sore throat and really bad body aches and pains. I said to myself ok, just eat what you need to get better and definitely no vomiting, let your body rest. etc etc So I sit down to have my breakfast and promise to keep it down. Yet as what always happens I become plagued by the 'vomit nazis' in my head. ugh.

Vomiting with a throat infection is terrible. Pain wise and hygiene wise.

Anyway. Not much else is going on, had lots of 21st birthdays. Really in need of a rebound guy to get my mind off things. It is not getting easier!! It is sucking majorly!!

Pixie stix! Have not seen the cabaret trailer.. do you mean burlesque??
and everyone else, thanks for all the non-purging well wishes, I fucked it up on friday and many many times over the weekend unfortunately. But thanks anyways :P

x