A Miracle?

No kidding you I have lost two kilos in two days.. I don't even know how this happened, i guess the fact that I didn't binge is good. So this is what I ate yesterday:
B: 2 egg whites with a bit of pepper and sauce and a tomato
L: 2 rice thins
D: Satay Chicken wrap (ashamed to say partially purged)

*And heaps of water throughout the day
*Went to the gym both days and half hour walk (so nothing too strenuous)

Perhaps the fact that i am actually absorbing food lol and not throwing up everything? And that I am spacing it out to get my metabolism running?

My timetable at uni is starting to get busier which means I'll be with the same group of people for the whole day. Which in turn means friends will be watching me like hawks lol.

I texted the ex (i nearly said bf then..habit :( ) He still has so much stuff of mine, clothes shoes- shit I want back.

I have a box of our cards and movie tickets and all that shit that I will probably burn in the fire. LOL

just fucking do it.

I just had this realisation today. I mean I have known this all along, but you know when things just hit you and make you think what. the. fuck.
well that was today.
i just realised i need to focus.
if i want this? I need to fucking work harder, i'm lucky(????) in that i have this ocd with ,my bingeing. If i p[lan to binge and even keep it down, ten minutes later i will purge it all up like a mad woman. I can't keep it down. But I need to stop this bingeing, i need to just not eat.
I want to lose ten kg by july 19?
poss?
howwwW???????
I think i will stay under 500 calories and do one day of liquid fasting a week. I will MAKE myself go to the gym and not sit at home thinking about it.
I have to change. This takes work. I won't just come to me. I want it enough to work really hard now.
ROARRRR i AM EMPOWERED.
lol
still could use some inspiration!!!!
xxx

Going Well

Ok so i feel pretty motivated today, had a good convo with a friend, who told me she always thinks "what would u rather?"- the gap between your thighs or that piece of bread? I LOVE bread, but seriously who doesn't want skinny thighs.
So I went the gym this morning which I usually burn about 300 cals for the workout. And before that I had two multigrain weetbix with a tiny bit of milk mixed with water, which sounds gross but it means that u arent eating dry weetbix. So the weet bix 182. Milk was about 150 ml as in estimate:which is 66 cals.
So what is that 248? I'll aim for 500 today. I get very low sugar levels and tend to faint very easily!! Wish I didn't, cos would be soo much easier. Anyways off to do some shopping, two birthday presents ugh so so poor. And tonight i'm staying at a friends place who never questions my need to not eat anything or need to disappear to the bathroom lol.
I can do this!!!!!
Cannot wait to weigh myself in a couple of days, but easter is scaring meeeeeeeeeee!
xx